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( Dec. 5th, 2015 02:07 am)
I've been watching along as my boyfriend plays Tales from the Borderlands. It's pretty well written, funny and exciting, even for someone like me who hasn't played any of the Borderlands games. I adore the robots, all of them!
We have gone through 3 episodes, I think, and I am really looking forward to the rest! Handsome Jack is such a compelling and interesting, complicated character. I love him too.


After that last episode I had to make my way to work, but I planned to chill in the nice, air conditioned Library to kill a few hours and hopefully try to do some anatomy studies in my sketchbook. On the way, I realised I was following one of my old high school friends. She was in fact, one of my best friends. It had been years since we'd spoken, even chatted online... I was really nervous, but I said hi. She was on her way to work too, we ended up catching up briefly in the library. Still really nervous, but it was lovely talking to her. She seems to have her life in order and she is classy, I always figured she had outgrown me. I truly feel like an immature brat despite my age. But it seemed like her hanging out with me, even in that brief time, she is also immature... unless it's a quality I just bring out in people. We ended up crouched like children observing a butt from a fair distance away...

I'm hoping we can hang out again, in a planned setting where I can feel more prepared. I messaged her on Facebook (our last conversation ended somewhere mid 2012 >>;;) and hopefully after the hustle 'n' bustle of December we can meet up and get tea and do some life drawing. Really hoping these actually happen... If I had a dollar for every time I made plans to 'hang out more' with old friends that never get fulfilled, I could afford another tattoo. It upsets me. Before today, every other encounter after high school (few as they were) we weren't really alone with each other, and I didn't feel I could let loose completely and be myself around some of the other people, so I always felt awkward. It was more natural one-on-one so... hopefully I won't be awkward again if we meet for tea.

I'm hoping to... keep people closer to me. Just a bit, I feel like I have drifted so far from a lot of my friends.


I never did do those anatomy studies.... dang. I'll try to do some now.

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( Dec. 5th, 2015 02:59 am)
I tried to hype myself up to reveal my rose tattoo to my mother... and it is pathetic how afraid I am. I'm a goddamn adult. And it's a pretty tattoo, not something she wouldn't like to see. Yet.. I still feel ... scared.

Ugh.

Got it about.... 3 or so weeks ago, had it hidden this whole time. And it's going to start getting even warmer here, I don't want to have to wear 3 quarter sleeves just trying to hide it around her. And I don't want to hear her shit on about me wearing sleeves in warm weather, that is almost worse. How the fuck do I bring it up?

"Yo, you like roses yeah?"
"Hey, want to know a secret?"
"Guess who has two thumbs and a new tattoo."

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